6.18.2009

It is finally here...

I must admit, at times it felt like this day would never arrive, but for most of this pregnancy it just flew by, and **TAADAA** we are going to have a baby today.  As usual, I couldn't sleep last night, but I'm getting very accustomed to not sleeping at night- so no biggie.  How do you really sleep when you know in a few hours you are walking into a hospital, completely healthy (well, with the exception of being 25 lbs. fatter than you were 9 months ago!) and ask them to send you into LABOR.  I don't remember a lot about my pregnancy with Madie, but I do remember that it hurt like no other.  I guess I've been to busy leading up to this little guy's arrival that I haven't had time to be completely utterly and totally miserably pregnant.  So, it isn't so much that I am uncomfortable and done with being pregnant.  Don't get me wrong- everyone that has seen me in the last month knows I'm done with being pregnant, but done in a different way.  I can't wait to give Cody the son he so deserves.  Cody has been the best Daddy a little Princess could ask for.  I can't wait to give our little Princess a best friend, a protector when Daddy and Mommy are gone, someone she can sit down with 30 years down the road and tell crazy family stories NOBODY else would believe- I can't wait to give Madie a brother.  And, to be a little selfish, I can't wait for my little guy to finally be here.  This pregnancy has brought me so much excitement to tackle the task of raising a boy even though I have NOT ONE CLUE how to do so!  I do know boys should probably NOT play withBarbies, I should not reuse all of Madie's precious little baby dresses, and I'm ruling out the nickname "Princess Jr." for this guy. But honestly, I'm about as girly-girl as you can get.  Luckily I married a Burns, so that has not been too much of a worry.  
Having grown up an only-child, yesterday I spent the day with Madison, and it continued to cross my mind "this is her last day as an only-child," and I thought of it in such a sad way, like she was loosing something so very important.  It made me sad to think that Madie will never be the exact same Madie as she was June 17, 2009.  I've never doubted that I will not have enough love to share with both of my children- I learned that with Madison.  When you have a child, your heart doesn't take love from one thing and give it to your child- your heart simply grows.  I think yesterday I simply allowed change to overwhelm me.  This little guy is going to be a huge change for our family, but I say bring it on!
So, in about an hour I am going to wake up Cody and Madie, we're all going to get ready and call the hospital at 6 am to see exactly what time to go in and CHANGE OUR LITTLE FAMILY OF 3 TO OUR HAPPY FAMILY OF 4!  My Doctor told me last week that usually they will tell you to come right in, so there is a good chance by about 7 or 8 we will be in the hospital on our way to having a baby!  We will try to keep as many people posted as possible, but since this is a completely different experience from going into labor with Madie, being sent home in labor only to have my water break a couple hours later and going back to the hospital in "THIS IS IT, WE'RE HAVING A BABY TODAY" labor- we honestly don't know what to expect.
As soon as we can, we will try to post pictures to the blog, but I don't know if St. Mark's has internet or not, so it may take a little while.

3 comments:

Stephanie said...

Yay! What an exciting day! I can't wait to see some pictures.

Amber Ada Reimann Burns said...

Or tomorrow, :).

Niki and Jess said...

I love this post. It is really well written. You are such a sweetheart...I am so glad Cody found someone as wonderful as you! Congrats, I know Weston is already here!