Well, today the day came. And she went. Off to Daybreak Elementary to be a Daybreak Dolphin. Not a tear shed, not an ounce of nervousness. Miss Madison walked off with her class giddy and happy to finally be a kindergartner. She was so excited- Paige was in Mrs. Collins' class with her, and for the entire week leading up to today they would count down the days till school, and then start yelling "YAY!" while jumping up and down together. Once she got to school today she found out Addy and Harry were also in her class, which was a fun surprise for her, but will be quite the adventure for Mrs. Collins.
The entire time we were dropping Madie off, I had to keep reminding myself "I still have 3 years till Cash goes to school," but I have a feeling those 3 years will be going by quite quickly.
We picked out her outfit last night, and I left work early so I could walk her to school today with Cash and Daddy. I got home early enough to do her hair, which she wanted in "two braids," so I did my best I could at piggy french braids.
In fact, if I dare say, things are getting much better around here than before our little curveball in life.
Nothing like a near-death experience to really put your priorities in check.
(and unfortunately for this blog, my priorities are not taking pictures of everything we do)
I came home from the hospital Saturday, the 30th. 6 nights, and 6 days in room 173. And only room 173 (except for the fun little excursion I got to take to radiology Thursday for a chest x-ray because I started coughing up blood)
A LOT can be learned in 6 days spent in a hospital bed, and I was so blessed to have my family and friends teach it to me.
- My husband is the most amazing guy out there. Cody made sure he was with me every time the doctor visited, and took up residence on a recliner that didn't even recline all the way back. He was the loving support that got me through my first couple of days of shock, when I began to realize JUST how serious everything was.
- I hope I never have to go through what my Mother did. It was my Mom that drove me around trying to find and urgent care that was open, and eventually talked me into going to the ER. She had to sit in the ER room with me while the doctor told us I had suffered a pulmonary embolism. Being a mother myself, I cannot imagine hearing that sort of news about my children~ even if they are grown at the time.
- Grandparents are amazing, and sleepovers with Grandma Burns and Grandma Smith helped out more than I will ever be able to express. Knowing that my two little loves were being taken care of by people that love them as much as Cody and I relieved a lot of stress as a mother.
- Our neighbors are the best friends that I could have ever dreamed of. As soon as everyone heard about what was going on I had more people than I could have dreamed of not simply offering to help, but demanding we allow them to help.
- It's official: we have the most adorable Sunbeams ever. Pictures drawn by our precious Sunbeams came flooding to decorate the plain white walls, and make room 173 a little more like home away from home.
- There is nothing like a pulmonary embolism to completely clear out your schedule. I've taken a new approach towards life from this experience, and I am trying to eliminate the term "I'm too busy to do anything" from my list of most common phrases.
We went back to Church today (technically yesterday, since it is 1:30am now), and it felt wonderful. As I walked into the building I felt a happiness and calm come upon me. The talks were focused on prayer today, as if it were planned perfectly just for me. God carried me through this entire experience, and prayers were answered all along the way.
Walking away from this experience I have no real negative emotions. I'm not ready to sign up for such an experience again, but what I have taken from it is irreplaceable. Although not that many people read my blog anymore (at one point I was too busy to blog, now I just don't blog because I feel guilty posting without pictures) for those people that DO still read my blog, I want to thank you. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the prayers and well wishes.
Then, enters reality. On Saturday morning, July 23rd, I woke up my entire left lung having piercing sharp pains. Leading up to this I've had a bad cough, though, so I thought nothing of it, and figured I'd make an appointment Monday morning to get some medicine. We went on with life, because we had a busy weekend planned, and I wasn't going to let a little lung pain stand in the way. Saturday we went to Savannah's 4th Birthday party, visited with friends, had an amazing crawdad boil, and went to sleep. Sunday morning we wake up, and my lung still hurts, but we had 9am Church, and there are too many precious 3 and 4 year old Sunbeams waiting for us at Church not to go. So off to Church we went as a family, and normal life continued. Sunday afternoon I laid down for a nap while the children were napping, and the pain began to get worse and spread. I had a few homework assignments due that night, so I woke up and finished those assignments while Cody took the kiddos to his parents to give me some quiet time. That's when I started to realize I probably needed to get to the doctor that evening to get some pain medicine, because I wasn't going to be able to sleep that night with the pain getting worse.
So, the adventure begins! I walked up to my mom's apartment (Cody had taken the car to his parents with the kiddos) and ask her to take me to an Insta-Care just up the street. When we got there, they had closed early that night in observance of Pioneer Day (a state holiday for Utah). The sign said there was another Insta-Care in Murray open till 10pm, so we traveled there, arriving at 9:10pm, to discover that location actually closed at 9pm. That's when my mom told me we should go to an emergency room, which is the last thing I wanted to deal with. Luckily I caved to my mom and we went to Jordan Valley Hospital's ER. I was checked in with chest pain, so I was moved up on the list and didn't have to wait long at all (SCORE!) Soon they were drawing blood and X-Raying my chest, finding no cause to my pain. My blood levels did come back a little high for a value that indicated I possibly could have had some clotting, so the doctor ordered a CTScan, even though he didn't believe I had any clotting. To EVERYONE'S surprise the CTScan came back that I indeed did have clotting- quite a few clots- in my lungs- both lungs. I was immediately checked into the hospital at 2am Monday July 25, and am still waiting for a discharge date. Monday evening my pulmonologist came in to talk to me, and that's when the news really sunk in for me. Luckily Cody was in the room, and was able to take in everything, because my mind couldn't even wrap around the first sentence he said- that if I hadn't been here in the hospital, I very likely could have been dead. He later told us that cases like my are rarely diagnosed, but rather usually discovered in autopsies.
So, here I sit, in a hospital bed- which was NOT anywhere in my planner. But, as much as this has thrown everything in the air as far as plans, I feel more blessed than anything. I am blessed that I get to sit in the hospital and recover. I am blessed that I am planning family activities once I get out, instead of my family planning a funeral for me. I am blessed that my Heavenly Father is giving me time to appreciate the many blessings and miracles he has put in my life lately. I am blessed that I will get to tuck my two precious kiddos into their beds then go to bed and snuggle up with my husband, even if it may not be tonight. I'm blessed that I will get to go to Church, and enjoy our precious little Sunbeams, and give thanks to my Heavenly Father for the miracle he has given me, which is one more breath.
And this little guy was the best trooper. He did great the entire day just taking everything in while spending most of the time in the backpack. The only word Cash says is still "mum," and everyday it melts my heart more and more. To say he is a mama's boy would be an understatement!
(Dad, I promise I will try to start updating more. It's been pretty easy to put the blog on the back burner since nobody else reads it anymore.)